While searching for you
I lost myself…
"Happy are those who dream dreams and are ready to pay the price to make them come true."
Today I realized
that I can’t control every aspect of my life.
As much as I want things to “blossom” with you
I can’t assume that you’re going to feel the same way that I do…
I’m being too selfish.
I need to be patient.
I need to learn how to channel out my feelings - my emotions - and be able to live with the fact that not everything is meant to go according to plan
To live every day, day by day, without expectations of the future. To live in the present.
That’s my goal.
LOL
I’ve lost about 20-25 followers this past week
I guess this is the result of me posting a crap load of random nonsense hahah
Today, I realized
that nothing in life can be constant other than the things that you have complete control over. You can’t control your relationship with someone else; it’s a two sided road. You can try and save things from changing, but effort from both sides of the relationship is needed. That’s why I’m so afraid of falling in love with someone. What if they lose interest in me while I’m still head over heels for them? I’m afraid. Afraid of not being able to keep a person interested in me. I’m scared. Scared of becoming so attached to someone and having to suddenly readjust my life to live without them. To have a person become apart of my daily routine…and eventually become someone that wants nothing to do with me.
Hahahahaha
My parents are worried that I can’t get a girlfriend
so when I tell them I’m hanging out with a girl/girls they get all happy
That’s so sad
Left my phone in @kikuchijared’s car last night
and he has a competition today…I won’t be getting my phone back until tonight around 11
Damn it. lol
I’m a really open person
Chances are, if you ask me a question, I’ll answer it. I’m not afraid of expressing how I feel.
I feel really passionate about my emotions tonight. LOL
I had a great weekend
I was able to…
-reconnect with some old friends
-eat food that was bomb af
-buy new clothes
-spend quality time with my family
-meet some awesooooome people that I want to hang out with more often
-Visit a new church that I really liked
-rekindle a friendship with someone that I really, really missed.
I haven’t been this happy in a loooooong loooong time.
Here’s something to think about.
Why do we waste our energy being jealous of people, if we can spend our time being happy for them instead? Jealousy isn’t a good feeling; it causes you to over think situations and is the cause of many broken friendships. Being happy doesn’t take the same amount of energy as jealousy does…Plus, in most cases, it leaves you with a feeling of satisfaction.
